Thursday, October 8, 2015

Today was starting to be a good day until...


I was laying in my berth looking out the porthole when some tiny little movement caught my eye. What? wait. Was that a little head breaking the surface every few seconds? It was a little duck chick 🐣. I promise you all I sprung into action as quickly as I could, but, to no avail. She was too far for me to reach, even with the longest pole I could find.😡 when he or she was close enough to reach I realized it was probably better to leave in peace and for me to not inflict any pain or hurt her body trying to revive her. I felt very low at that moment I realized I hadn't been quick enough to save her. I'm probably just stupid for caring about a tiny little duck. If you ever had a close call in the pool or at the beach you understand that her last few seconds of life were very frightening.

Tuesday, September 29, 2015

Half full...


I don't know if i can do this anymore. But it seems like I've gone so far that I have no way out. I've put all my eggs in one basket. even if I wanna stop, I don't know what to do after this. I don't know where to go, I don't know where to live. I just woke up and it's like I realize that for the past couple years I stop caring about everything including myself. I've been so selfish. I'm living in some kind of false reality. I think the reason I bought this boat is because I'm a big coward in the 1st place. Was going to make an escape and sail away from my life, reality.... But I might just shoot myself instead

Wednesday, September 23, 2015